IT'S NOT LUPUS! - Really?

Well, for me it is.

Yesterday, I was coming home back from work in the crowded London underground. Thank god, I had found a seat at my station. But at some station a woman turned down to me and said “Excuse me, there’s a lady who’s not feeling well - would you ming giving her your seat?”

Errrrr… how could I tell her that, yes, I minded? I mean, I’m sorry for the woman feeling unwell, but my own knees felt like they could not support me much longer after that hot day. Dont you know? When it’s very hot -or very cold, or rainy : all the time basically- I’ve got arthritis. In my knees and hand. Sometimes it’s so bad I can’t walk down the stairs or even hold a pen in my hand. And yesterday in that tube, I felt like I would just fell if I had to stand for more than 5 minutes.

Anyway, my answer to the helping lady was “I’m sorry, I’ve got arthritis myself and I’m not well either”.

A look of contempt was all I got as an answer. Other passengers looked at me, like they were ashamed for me. Paranoid much, moi? Not really : I heard some 40-something people saying “Youngsters, they’re so selfish”. Ok, I look younger than my 28yo, and people are apparently not aware of arthritis affecting people under the age of 50. But it does! And it’s only one of the side-effects of lupus…

I wish people would watch more Dr House.

Told you!

That my BF Sadie's Tumblr was great! She's part of the "recommended" blogs now!
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George is getting married.

(Remember George? If not, check my archives.)

No offence, but to me people getting married – especially before their 30s- make me think of all those people from my hometown who never really left and are happy with a factory job and reproducing every 2 or 3 years. Or there’s the kind of crazy person who meet and live a passionate affair and wed after 3 months, to live a dramatic relationship, ending up in a divorce before they reach their 2nd anniversary.

So I was wondering : why would someone of our *kind* - the normal one, obviously : educated, carreer-aimed or such - would want to get married?
What’s the point in it? The only advantage I can see in getting married is paying less taxes than when you’re single.

Apart from that, I have to admit that I don’t believe in life-long relationships. Forever love and the dreamy tales we’ve been fed with are not reality. Love always fades away, hidden behind a routine (children, work...) or simply by boredom. You will always meet an old couple who’s been together for more than 60 years and still hold hands and adore each other – but they’re one in a million. I have a tendency to rather believe in divorce rates and the hatred that can emerge from what was once a healthy relationship.

Moreover, even if I’m a Christian and have been baptized as a Catholic, I’ve never been a religious person. I don’t agree with the Christian view of relationships and marriage. Last year, I attended one of my BFF’s wedding and the church part was nerve-wrecking for me. I could have burst out loud after every word the priest said. Even though my friend, being actually sterile, told him not to mention having children in their soon future as a couple, the priest didn’t drop the matter and even emphasized the subject by pleading S and R to welcome the children God would send them. I am not sterile, but I don’t want children, and if I’d found myself in S’s position that day, I could have just stormed off the church.

Last but not the least, whats the problem with leaving with someone for years without being engaged in some ways? Why would I feel threatened if my boyfriend hasn’t proposed yet?

I care for him, he cares for me.
What could be more important than this?

Being A Music Journo

Don't / Look / Back
Dumb / Ass /Punks
Sex / Priests / Overdosed
It's / Like / Jazz
Ringo / Vs / McCartney
Finnish / Shoegaze / Mafia
Mess / Your / Self
Jesus / Loves / Heroin
Survivors / Of / Britpop
Muuuum / Shut / Up!
Boys / Make / Filth
Awesome / Dog / Meat
Noel / Loves / Paul
Boys / Boys / Boys
Let's / Dance / Bitch

TEAM EDWARD? TEAM JACOB?

Who cares?
Don't you all know she's hooking up with the vampire?!!?!???

Anti-groupie

When will the old groupie cliché die?
Yes, I'm a girl; yes, I love rock bands; yes, I do love concerts and seeing guys sweating on stage.
Does that mean I'd have sex with them?....Err...Let's say if I get to know one of them, and we end up fancying each other (a bit like in Camp Rock - ah! the lolz)), why not? But, more to the point : NO. I would NEVER have a quick shag backstage or in a tourbus.
Where would my self-esteem -and my rock chick credibility- would lay, then? (answer : in a dirty bunk bed in a tourbus).

Moreover, people have to be aware of the plague that is the male groupie phenomena : they're even crazier & nfreakier. Believe me, I used to know one (Ben, this one is for you).

So, don't ever tell me I'm a groupie = the last one who did got my beer right in his stupid face. And he was in a band himself. There.

Why I dont like (big) Festivals

“We come to another gate, endure more negociations, and then we’re on the site proper, driving past rows of tents. Scumbags and jizz-buckets sit around their tents drinking Stella and Woodpecker and Christ knows what.

I do not understand the festival experience. These people we’re driving through, they fought to get in there. They think they’re lucky. They spent hours on the phone/net trying to get tickets, happily having paid hundreds of pounds for a pair - when they managed to find some. Now they’re celebrating being here, celebrating the fact that they can lie around in urine-flavoured mud drinking warm lager and eating burgers while fucking Cast knock out their greatest huts in the distance.”

John Niven, “Kill your friends”.